Sometimes i just feel so tired of everything. I feel like giving up, yet part of me refuses to give up so easily. People might say that it will be easy if i just let it go, but i fear that elsewhere will be the same.
I want to go, yet i have no confidence that the other side will be better. I want to go, yet i got simply no more energy to start all over again.
I see the cruelty of this world today. I shouldn't be there at all. I'd rather I don't know anything at all.
I hate the way they work. I hate their narrow-mindedness. I hate the way they place me there and to listen to all those stuff.
It may be others that they are targeting now, I don't know when will be my turn.
I just feel like shutting myself away from this reality. The world is too ugly for me to bear..
Yes, i am enjoying my long weekends!! Not exactly long, because i worked for more than half a day on Sat!! zzz.. But i'm not gg to let that spoil my holiday mood. I'm hooked on MapleStory once again. Wahahaha! Just bought my maple points, and now my qad and i are twins!! We are the angels! =p I'll post a pic when there's a chance. hehes.
Conclusion: I rather slack and do nth at all, than to go to work. =pPp
It was one of the rare times when i was awake for nearly 24hrs before i get to sleep. I woke up at 7am yesterday morning, and i slept at 5am. Hehes! Cos of work, cos of deardear, and cos of a K-ing throughout the night! =D
Hmm.. I'm really dumbfounded after reading that e-mail. I duno what to comment on it, but i just really really hope you will get over with all these things that happened. I know it will be very difficult, and there are certain things which friends cannot do for you. However, anytime u wanna just get that heavy sack off your back, i will do anything that helps with that. Jia you bah..! No matter how badly you fare, no matter how messed up you felt, no matter how you feel about yourself, you will still be the same old friend whom we all care and love for. Give me a ring or sms anytime, and if you really really need a company, i have something call a medical leave to claim for. =) Don't worry, i will f*** care that job when it comes to more important things.
As for me, life have been up and down. Breathed down the neck at work by the Hantu, i can hardly catch up my breath. I don't deny that i like those "bo liao" things she asked me to do *fan jian*, i wish i will be appreciated. Its okay, i will hang on til she drop that fateful bomb on me.
Personal-attacked today. She said i need to lose weight, right in front of a stranger. She still dare laugh about it.
Anywae, i need to improve on stress management. Simply can't breathe. Too many things throw to me at one go, and she wants it FAST. Maybe she thought i am a robot, but sadly, i'm not.
I duno what am i treated as. I run so many things for her with a pay lesser than what i earned as a fresh grad. Without being appreciated.
I'm starting to enjoy my work, which is good! I don't dread going to work, except for waking up early. =/ This feeling is better than how i feel when i was in silkair, at least for the time being. Hopefully it remained this way.
Me and my new partner, Kiah, got our own territory today! We have come up with plans to improve on our work flow, together with our matron, Sister. Hehes. I love doing things i like it my way~ I enjoy doing things that are not within my job scope, and hopefully there are more miscellaneous and useless stuff throw to me to do. =p
Today is one of our EN's last day, big sister Zillah~ Love her motherly ways of doing things. Hope she'll be happier elsewhere... =)=)
Still didn't manage to go to RELC to pay for the UOL's registration fee. Sighhh.. Stupid heavy traffic!!
Enjoyed the relaxing evening with deardear at East Coast Park though.. (",)I love my boy! =)
I'm feeling much much better now! So many million thanks to my QAD, Jan, Fiona, Xp and those who cared~ =)=)
Had a relaxing day at deardear's house today! =) Supposed to coax him to sleep, but in the end i fall asleep myself. =X Poor deardear got no space to sleep, and i really hope his insomnia can faster go away!
I did my own manicure too! =) I spent a total of 50+bucks to get myself a set of 02 Skin nail polishes.. I love their nail polish! I bought a basecoat, maroon, white, 3 nail art stickers and a set of beads~~ Had a sense of accomplishment after doing my own simple manicure! Hehes~ =p
I am looking forward to our new home in the near future! As long as dear is fine, i am the happiest girl!
I luBbbb yoU SoooOooo much~~~~~~!!!! oOvOn(,")~("v")~(",)oOoCe
Sometimes i just feel so tired of everything. I feel like giving up, yet part of me refuses to give up so easily. People might say that it will be easy if i just let it go, but i fear that elsewhere will be the same.
I want to go, yet i have no confidence that the other side will be better. I want to go, yet i got simply no more energy to start all over again.
I see the cruelty of this world today. I shouldn't be there at all. I'd rather I don't know anything at all.
I hate the way they work. I hate their narrow-mindedness. I hate the way they place me there and to listen to all those stuff.
It may be others that they are targeting now, I don't know when will be my turn.
I just feel like shutting myself away from this reality. The world is too ugly for me to bear..
Yes, i am enjoying my long weekends!! Not exactly long, because i worked for more than half a day on Sat!! zzz.. But i'm not gg to let that spoil my holiday mood. I'm hooked on MapleStory once again. Wahahaha! Just bought my maple points, and now my qad and i are twins!! We are the angels! =p I'll post a pic when there's a chance. hehes.
Conclusion: I rather slack and do nth at all, than to go to work. =pPp
It was one of the rare times when i was awake for nearly 24hrs before i get to sleep. I woke up at 7am yesterday morning, and i slept at 5am. Hehes! Cos of work, cos of deardear, and cos of a K-ing throughout the night! =D
Hmm.. I'm really dumbfounded after reading that e-mail. I duno what to comment on it, but i just really really hope you will get over with all these things that happened. I know it will be very difficult, and there are certain things which friends cannot do for you. However, anytime u wanna just get that heavy sack off your back, i will do anything that helps with that. Jia you bah..! No matter how badly you fare, no matter how messed up you felt, no matter how you feel about yourself, you will still be the same old friend whom we all care and love for. Give me a ring or sms anytime, and if you really really need a company, i have something call a medical leave to claim for. =) Don't worry, i will f*** care that job when it comes to more important things.
As for me, life have been up and down. Breathed down the neck at work by the Hantu, i can hardly catch up my breath. I don't deny that i like those "bo liao" things she asked me to do *fan jian*, i wish i will be appreciated. Its okay, i will hang on til she drop that fateful bomb on me.
Personal-attacked today. She said i need to lose weight, right in front of a stranger. She still dare laugh about it.
Anywae, i need to improve on stress management. Simply can't breathe. Too many things throw to me at one go, and she wants it FAST. Maybe she thought i am a robot, but sadly, i'm not.
I duno what am i treated as. I run so many things for her with a pay lesser than what i earned as a fresh grad. Without being appreciated.
I'm starting to enjoy my work, which is good! I don't dread going to work, except for waking up early. =/ This feeling is better than how i feel when i was in silkair, at least for the time being. Hopefully it remained this way.
Me and my new partner, Kiah, got our own territory today! We have come up with plans to improve on our work flow, together with our matron, Sister. Hehes. I love doing things i like it my way~ I enjoy doing things that are not within my job scope, and hopefully there are more miscellaneous and useless stuff throw to me to do. =p
Today is one of our EN's last day, big sister Zillah~ Love her motherly ways of doing things. Hope she'll be happier elsewhere... =)=)
Still didn't manage to go to RELC to pay for the UOL's registration fee. Sighhh.. Stupid heavy traffic!!
Enjoyed the relaxing evening with deardear at East Coast Park though.. (",)I love my boy! =)
I'm feeling much much better now! So many million thanks to my QAD, Jan, Fiona, Xp and those who cared~ =)=)
Had a relaxing day at deardear's house today! =) Supposed to coax him to sleep, but in the end i fall asleep myself. =X Poor deardear got no space to sleep, and i really hope his insomnia can faster go away!
I did my own manicure too! =) I spent a total of 50+bucks to get myself a set of 02 Skin nail polishes.. I love their nail polish! I bought a basecoat, maroon, white, 3 nail art stickers and a set of beads~~ Had a sense of accomplishment after doing my own simple manicure! Hehes~ =p
I am looking forward to our new home in the near future! As long as dear is fine, i am the happiest girl!
I luBbbb yoU SoooOooo much~~~~~~!!!! oOvOn(,")~("v")~(",)oOoCe
Living in Uncertainty.
