Can't help it but has been feeling really moody and emotional... Can't help it but I've been feeling extremely tired... EXTREMELY.
I concussed the moment I got home today.
I wanted to finish up my tutorials after I reached home at around 4.30pm. But I slept all the way til 7.30pm.. without myself knowing when did I fall asleep. Perhaps I fainted.
I'm so tired of this lifestyle. But it doesn't give me a choice...
Just had my dinner at 10.30pm, yes, u didn't hear me wrongly. My bro called for pizza delivery and I had my cheesy bites!! Yummy yum~~ I'm so full right now but because of the stupid amount of MSG they put in it, they force me to drink soooo much water.. I'm now full + bloated~ How am I going to sleep like that... Oh well....
Anywae, i really HATE it when they argue. And i actually felt guilty because they argued over me. Over a stupid shelf which i wanted. My mum never agrees to adding a shelf for me, she just want me to dump all my toys away. I'm so upset and that's why dad quarrelled with her. Am I to blame........? Sigh.
Recent events has actually made me a happier person. *Not becos of work of course, duh~* I'm glad my dad got lucky 3 times in a row, and tml night we'll be having big meal together again, with dear, jiahui and my grandparents. And also because of that, I need not pay for my new furniture and paint. He has also sucessfully bidded for his desired car plate no. SJJ9333J.....
Sighh.. I dun want quarrel... I dun wan unhappiness....
Yay!! finally~ The delivery man delivers at 12.30pm instead of the 2-4pm slot that we booked. HaPpY! =)=)
We had a hard time trying to push my old desk out of the way.. So heavy and bulky! Thanks to my dad and bro, I didn't really need to use much strength. =p
This is the blue me and dear painted.
This the pinkish-purple me and my dad painted.
And together it doesn't seem to blend. =/ haha. But i still prefer this than my previous dull lilac.
My new desk!! I like it being spacious.. =) But i believe a heap of moutain will be built up soon. =/
I'm not feeling great today. Just when i thought that everything starts going smoothly, something else happened again. I'm really very tired of riding this non-stop roller coaster, and I wonder when will all these end..... Its nauseating.
Perhaps til the day I left.
Yet, it seems like i'm running away from it again. I hate to feel that way. I want to be strong enough to face this current, I want to be given this chance to prove that I can withstand... But who will be giving me the chance?
.......................
Anyway, I find today's maths lecture more interesting than the previous one. The lecturer can definitely crack some lame and cold jokes, which I find it really funny~~ Haha. So far so good, i'm enjoying school. =)
I'll be getting my new desk this Sat! Once everything is packed and settled, its time to get down to serious work.
I can't believe that i actually had the mood and energy to paint my 4 walls, with 1 wall of blue, and another 3 purple. Hmm.. in fact the end result isn't as nice as i thought it would be. Somehow the colour combination doesn't blend very well. =/=/ But i still feel that its nicer than before! Its a combined effort by me, dear and my dad! Hehes..
I am having jelly hands now~~~~~
My new study desk will be in next Saturday. Nothing pretty or fantastic but at least its big and spacious! Looking forward! =)
To side-track, here are some pics which i took during our feast at work on Thursday. Its was a celebration by 7 of us who get confirmed, SSN Low, SN Lee, HK Nancy, OTA Rahidah, OTA Gabriel and 2 PREs, me & kiah!
Due to limited space, food was set on hospital styled tray tables~
Kueh kueh by SOTA Mohamed's wife, E-clair baked by SSN Low, fruits by Auntie Juriah~
Chicken rice by OTA Rahidah.
Me, Siti (from Novena Clinic) and our newly joined SSN Suganthi~
The best remedy is a good night's sleep! Been feeling so lethargic and restless yesterday, to the point that I have to struggle to keep myself awake for the whole day. I had thought it through, and something hit me yesterday for a TV drama:
You live for yourself, not for others.
Of course it may not be entirely true. Personally I'll put it in this way:
You live for yourself and your loved ones.
Therefore, other people who doesn't fall under any category of my loved ones, shall not be the one who will affect my quality of life. I'm still learning. I have to be strong for myself and the people around me.
I'm painting my room today! Hope everything goes well. =)
I realized that most of my blog entries are very superficial, as in, i describe about my work when i'm at work, and describe about sch when i'm at school.. Come to think, i seldom got to reflect on my daily life, and every single day just pass by me like that, just burying myself in work.
I start to think, is it really that work and sch occupy such an important percentage in my life?? Things that happen at work or sch always affect my mood so drastically. I have to learn to balance my work life already. Because to me, friends, family and bf are still the most important ti me, without them, my life will be NOTHING even with good career.. So.. I have to be strong & brave! =)=)
Today is supposed to be nerve-wrecking day, but it all turns out fine! I was dreading today because of 3 reasons:
1) I'm working from 11am-8pm (I hate shift work!) 2) A problematic doctor whom we hate each other is doing a case today (Damn it!) 3) I cannot go for my free seminar on laser hair removal with kiah and the clinic doctors today!
Sad-ed!
BUT.....
1) Deardear send me to work today!! =D
2) Everyone includes the CEO and the manager is defending all of us against tt sickening SEE LION! They sent guards and horses today. I feel sooooooo protected!
3) I am officially confirmed today! My probation ended before 3 months, and my pay increment is higher than expected! Okay, i'm contented as for now. =) They also promised to pull me up to management if there's any openings, hopefully they will keep their promise!
4)Dear and me got our place for that flat that we bidded for! But our queue is 200+... o.O..
4) QAD just told me a 4d3n Bangkok trip including air tix and hotel costs only $399 nett!! I WANT TO GO~~~~!!!!!
Ahhhh...!!
*EXCITED*!
hehes, i'm going to save up for that trip and apply leave next week once everything confirmed. =) Me and Wee are happy girls today, even if we died in Maple World~
Can't help it but has been feeling really moody and emotional... Can't help it but I've been feeling extremely tired... EXTREMELY.
I concussed the moment I got home today.
I wanted to finish up my tutorials after I reached home at around 4.30pm. But I slept all the way til 7.30pm.. without myself knowing when did I fall asleep. Perhaps I fainted.
I'm so tired of this lifestyle. But it doesn't give me a choice...
Just had my dinner at 10.30pm, yes, u didn't hear me wrongly. My bro called for pizza delivery and I had my cheesy bites!! Yummy yum~~ I'm so full right now but because of the stupid amount of MSG they put in it, they force me to drink soooo much water.. I'm now full + bloated~ How am I going to sleep like that... Oh well....
Anywae, i really HATE it when they argue. And i actually felt guilty because they argued over me. Over a stupid shelf which i wanted. My mum never agrees to adding a shelf for me, she just want me to dump all my toys away. I'm so upset and that's why dad quarrelled with her. Am I to blame........? Sigh.
Recent events has actually made me a happier person. *Not becos of work of course, duh~* I'm glad my dad got lucky 3 times in a row, and tml night we'll be having big meal together again, with dear, jiahui and my grandparents. And also because of that, I need not pay for my new furniture and paint. He has also sucessfully bidded for his desired car plate no. SJJ9333J.....
Sighh.. I dun want quarrel... I dun wan unhappiness....
Yay!! finally~ The delivery man delivers at 12.30pm instead of the 2-4pm slot that we booked. HaPpY! =)=)
We had a hard time trying to push my old desk out of the way.. So heavy and bulky! Thanks to my dad and bro, I didn't really need to use much strength. =p
This is the blue me and dear painted.
This the pinkish-purple me and my dad painted.
And together it doesn't seem to blend. =/ haha. But i still prefer this than my previous dull lilac.
My new desk!! I like it being spacious.. =) But i believe a heap of moutain will be built up soon. =/
I'm not feeling great today. Just when i thought that everything starts going smoothly, something else happened again. I'm really very tired of riding this non-stop roller coaster, and I wonder when will all these end..... Its nauseating.
Perhaps til the day I left.
Yet, it seems like i'm running away from it again. I hate to feel that way. I want to be strong enough to face this current, I want to be given this chance to prove that I can withstand... But who will be giving me the chance?
.......................
Anyway, I find today's maths lecture more interesting than the previous one. The lecturer can definitely crack some lame and cold jokes, which I find it really funny~~ Haha. So far so good, i'm enjoying school. =)
I'll be getting my new desk this Sat! Once everything is packed and settled, its time to get down to serious work.
I can't believe that i actually had the mood and energy to paint my 4 walls, with 1 wall of blue, and another 3 purple. Hmm.. in fact the end result isn't as nice as i thought it would be. Somehow the colour combination doesn't blend very well. =/=/ But i still feel that its nicer than before! Its a combined effort by me, dear and my dad! Hehes..
I am having jelly hands now~~~~~
My new study desk will be in next Saturday. Nothing pretty or fantastic but at least its big and spacious! Looking forward! =)
To side-track, here are some pics which i took during our feast at work on Thursday. Its was a celebration by 7 of us who get confirmed, SSN Low, SN Lee, HK Nancy, OTA Rahidah, OTA Gabriel and 2 PREs, me & kiah!
Due to limited space, food was set on hospital styled tray tables~
Kueh kueh by SOTA Mohamed's wife, E-clair baked by SSN Low, fruits by Auntie Juriah~
Chicken rice by OTA Rahidah.
Me, Siti (from Novena Clinic) and our newly joined SSN Suganthi~
The best remedy is a good night's sleep! Been feeling so lethargic and restless yesterday, to the point that I have to struggle to keep myself awake for the whole day. I had thought it through, and something hit me yesterday for a TV drama:
You live for yourself, not for others.
Of course it may not be entirely true. Personally I'll put it in this way:
You live for yourself and your loved ones.
Therefore, other people who doesn't fall under any category of my loved ones, shall not be the one who will affect my quality of life. I'm still learning. I have to be strong for myself and the people around me.
I'm painting my room today! Hope everything goes well. =)
I realized that most of my blog entries are very superficial, as in, i describe about my work when i'm at work, and describe about sch when i'm at school.. Come to think, i seldom got to reflect on my daily life, and every single day just pass by me like that, just burying myself in work.
I start to think, is it really that work and sch occupy such an important percentage in my life?? Things that happen at work or sch always affect my mood so drastically. I have to learn to balance my work life already. Because to me, friends, family and bf are still the most important ti me, without them, my life will be NOTHING even with good career.. So.. I have to be strong & brave! =)=)
Today is supposed to be nerve-wrecking day, but it all turns out fine! I was dreading today because of 3 reasons:
1) I'm working from 11am-8pm (I hate shift work!) 2) A problematic doctor whom we hate each other is doing a case today (Damn it!) 3) I cannot go for my free seminar on laser hair removal with kiah and the clinic doctors today!
Sad-ed!
BUT.....
1) Deardear send me to work today!! =D
2) Everyone includes the CEO and the manager is defending all of us against tt sickening SEE LION! They sent guards and horses today. I feel sooooooo protected!
3) I am officially confirmed today! My probation ended before 3 months, and my pay increment is higher than expected! Okay, i'm contented as for now. =) They also promised to pull me up to management if there's any openings, hopefully they will keep their promise!
4)Dear and me got our place for that flat that we bidded for! But our queue is 200+... o.O..
4) QAD just told me a 4d3n Bangkok trip including air tix and hotel costs only $399 nett!! I WANT TO GO~~~~!!!!!
Ahhhh...!!
*EXCITED*!
hehes, i'm going to save up for that trip and apply leave next week once everything confirmed. =) Me and Wee are happy girls today, even if we died in Maple World~
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