I'm starting to fall sick.. Sigh. I can feel my throat slowly burning, and I felt the chills. I had a real hard time at work today, because I need to use my voice for about 80% of the time. It was worse when I came back, and I start to think of how am I going to survive tml. Perhaps I will be asked to go home.. Lol~ But i shall brace myself for tml, no point staying at home when I gotta attend class at night.
My exam dates are out. I feel the dread at the thought of forking out 2k for my exam fees, but I dun have the urge to start revision at all. I'm so zombie-fied over work and sch, I'm not a gd time manager. I even let my body take over my mind. I feel tired all the time, if not restless... Sigh. I hate this lifestyle.
Talk about new year resolutions, I have none. I dun even have the energy to motivate myself.
My menses are supposed to come 2 days ago! It has been delayed, and now u see why my mood is swinging low.
Nevertheless, it is a good day for celebration. HaPpy 23rd bIrthday to my QiNg aI dE! (",)
My cousins and I were supposed to paint my grandma's house last saturday, but it was postponed to yesterday. Thanks to ber who keep pestering my uncle, he finally gave in to her and asked all of us to fall in at 10am yesterday.. =D Well, my bro was late and therefore i was late as well. I didn't get to choose the colours with ber and she chose pink for the wall. Hehes. We had great fun painting from 11am ~ about 5pm? Ber and me had the same problem, we felt the strain in our legs and not our hands. o.O Probably because we need to climb up and down to touch up the corners and ceilings, and we painted the living room and kitchen!
Different jobs were assigned to us. Me and ber in-charge of corners and sides and were given small brushes and containers. My bro and elder cousin were given rollers and in-charge of the big pieces of wall, my uncle the ceiling, and my youngest cousin (among our generation) the door frames. Teamwork finally paid off at the end of the day. =)=)
First pic of the day! All our us brought our lok lok clothes to change~
Things were not going too well at first when my grandma accidentally spilled the paint even before we started! She was then "sacked" by our group and went to do logistics. Me and ber were shoo-ed off downstairs to get turpentine, and we took a very long time cos we waited to buy bubble tea for ourselves =X
This is how me and my qad felt in work everyday. Lol!
Oh man, i'm feeling like this every monday. I can't wait til friday, and i will start counting down. Feeling joyous on friday, and starting to dread all over again after saturday's over. Its a vicious cycle...
Btw, i dun think i have told many ppl except close friends.. That a recent fortune teller (a super eerie-ly accurate one which can even describe how ce looks like -- dun ask me how) told me that i will lead a luxurious life in the future. Everything will go very smoothly for me after i've completed my degree, however i will meet obstacles during the course of it.
Anywae, i'm starting to ponder.... Is he refering the "luxury" in terms of monetary gains or the luxury in the quality of life. I mean, of course I knew he was refering to financial power, because fortune teller dun usually beat about the bush and asking you to read in between the lines. Its just that for myself, I dun foresee to be one of the high flyers and be part of the unseemingly high income group. Its not that I lacked the confidence to become one, rather, I chose not to.
Under the labour demand curve, i'm always at the furthest end of the leisure axis. I chose to live my life the way I want it to be enjoyable. I hate long hours of work, hate to bring back half of the office back home everyday, hate to burn my weekends for work. In contrary, I do hope that the fortune teller was right. However, I became doubtful because my personality and his prediction are what I deemed as mutually exclusive.
As for now, I would be greatful if my quality of life is luxurious, in the way I want it to. =)
I do feel suffocated at times, really.. I felt that my life has been constraint ever since i was young. There are many things out there which i wanted to do, yet i was prevented from doing it just because other ppl was against it... And the other people is not just anybody, but ppl who are close to me, ppl whom i have no choice but to spare a thought for them, ppl whom influenced a big part of whom i am today....
Why do they view academic success as the only success in our lives? Aren't there many other things out there which are more impt that just academic studies? Why can't i live the life which i want.... Why do they have to force me to do the things which i dislike.... Why do they view being rich means a happier life? Why do they force me to climb higher and earn more money? It is not part of my wishes, never is that a part of my wish..... I'm not as ambitious as my friends out there.... That doesn't mean i'm against it, but its just not me.... Its just not the thing that makes me happy..... I am who i am, i need not compete with anyone. I need not match myself against my friends, other ppl.......
Why can't they understand what i want.... why can't they accept what makes me truly happy.......
I'm starting to fall sick.. Sigh. I can feel my throat slowly burning, and I felt the chills. I had a real hard time at work today, because I need to use my voice for about 80% of the time. It was worse when I came back, and I start to think of how am I going to survive tml. Perhaps I will be asked to go home.. Lol~ But i shall brace myself for tml, no point staying at home when I gotta attend class at night.
My exam dates are out. I feel the dread at the thought of forking out 2k for my exam fees, but I dun have the urge to start revision at all. I'm so zombie-fied over work and sch, I'm not a gd time manager. I even let my body take over my mind. I feel tired all the time, if not restless... Sigh. I hate this lifestyle.
Talk about new year resolutions, I have none. I dun even have the energy to motivate myself.
My menses are supposed to come 2 days ago! It has been delayed, and now u see why my mood is swinging low.
Nevertheless, it is a good day for celebration. HaPpy 23rd bIrthday to my QiNg aI dE! (",)
My cousins and I were supposed to paint my grandma's house last saturday, but it was postponed to yesterday. Thanks to ber who keep pestering my uncle, he finally gave in to her and asked all of us to fall in at 10am yesterday.. =D Well, my bro was late and therefore i was late as well. I didn't get to choose the colours with ber and she chose pink for the wall. Hehes. We had great fun painting from 11am ~ about 5pm? Ber and me had the same problem, we felt the strain in our legs and not our hands. o.O Probably because we need to climb up and down to touch up the corners and ceilings, and we painted the living room and kitchen!
Different jobs were assigned to us. Me and ber in-charge of corners and sides and were given small brushes and containers. My bro and elder cousin were given rollers and in-charge of the big pieces of wall, my uncle the ceiling, and my youngest cousin (among our generation) the door frames. Teamwork finally paid off at the end of the day. =)=)
First pic of the day! All our us brought our lok lok clothes to change~
Things were not going too well at first when my grandma accidentally spilled the paint even before we started! She was then "sacked" by our group and went to do logistics. Me and ber were shoo-ed off downstairs to get turpentine, and we took a very long time cos we waited to buy bubble tea for ourselves =X
This is how me and my qad felt in work everyday. Lol!
Oh man, i'm feeling like this every monday. I can't wait til friday, and i will start counting down. Feeling joyous on friday, and starting to dread all over again after saturday's over. Its a vicious cycle...
Btw, i dun think i have told many ppl except close friends.. That a recent fortune teller (a super eerie-ly accurate one which can even describe how ce looks like -- dun ask me how) told me that i will lead a luxurious life in the future. Everything will go very smoothly for me after i've completed my degree, however i will meet obstacles during the course of it.
Anywae, i'm starting to ponder.... Is he refering the "luxury" in terms of monetary gains or the luxury in the quality of life. I mean, of course I knew he was refering to financial power, because fortune teller dun usually beat about the bush and asking you to read in between the lines. Its just that for myself, I dun foresee to be one of the high flyers and be part of the unseemingly high income group. Its not that I lacked the confidence to become one, rather, I chose not to.
Under the labour demand curve, i'm always at the furthest end of the leisure axis. I chose to live my life the way I want it to be enjoyable. I hate long hours of work, hate to bring back half of the office back home everyday, hate to burn my weekends for work. In contrary, I do hope that the fortune teller was right. However, I became doubtful because my personality and his prediction are what I deemed as mutually exclusive.
As for now, I would be greatful if my quality of life is luxurious, in the way I want it to. =)
I do feel suffocated at times, really.. I felt that my life has been constraint ever since i was young. There are many things out there which i wanted to do, yet i was prevented from doing it just because other ppl was against it... And the other people is not just anybody, but ppl who are close to me, ppl whom i have no choice but to spare a thought for them, ppl whom influenced a big part of whom i am today....
Why do they view academic success as the only success in our lives? Aren't there many other things out there which are more impt that just academic studies? Why can't i live the life which i want.... Why do they have to force me to do the things which i dislike.... Why do they view being rich means a happier life? Why do they force me to climb higher and earn more money? It is not part of my wishes, never is that a part of my wish..... I'm not as ambitious as my friends out there.... That doesn't mean i'm against it, but its just not me.... Its just not the thing that makes me happy..... I am who i am, i need not compete with anyone. I need not match myself against my friends, other ppl.......
Why can't they understand what i want.... why can't they accept what makes me truly happy.......
Gave way
