Hmm, misunderstands have been cleared. I'm glad its just misunderstandings. =) Btw, i'm so thankful for the constant encouragement from different people!!! (",) Its good to spur each other on. It really feels good to have people fighting alongside with you. =) =)
Btw, the drilling's getting worse. Or should i say it reached the maximum threshold that I can withstand. I can feel my whole floor vibrating. I couldn't stand it!! Why must it fall during my exam period. I really don't know what to say. It WORSE than my alarm clock every morning. I don't blame the workers, I don't blame the government for upgrading my lift although I dun need it, I just blame it on my luck.
Its okay if we are trying hard to squeeze in everything within these 2 weeks. Our block leave haben even started! So, just have to make the best out of it. Liping just mentioned that an econs lecturer ever said that it will be a waste to obtain just a pass or 3rd class honours degree, having wasted so much money for it. Kind of struck me quite badly and this really urge me to get rid of that idea!
Jia you liping, dear, gladys, shee wee, jian mei, felicia and ruobin.
Hehes, looking forward to our mahjong, nintendo wii and red wine party on 16th!! Til then, stay focus!
I broke my personal best today, i took 3 naps in the whole aftnoon! Sigh, have never been so sleepy! I guess its partly due to my right eye infection. The irritation has been ongoing for a few days, and i guess last night it just came all out. My eyes are so dry today, and they made me so sleepy.
Had a few sips of Choya ydae at my grandma's place, and it was enough to knock me out. I kinda like the aftermath effect, where you can feel your heart pumping and it makes you a little "high". However, the side effect of a throbbing headache is of course unwelcoming, and it follows me til the next morning. I guess I have to drink more often, my threshold for alcohol is too low!
Hehes, had fun at my grandma's place ydae. I love gatherings but often couldn't make time for it. I hope the mothers' day dim sum can be pushed forward after my exams, if not i'm going to give it a miss. Sigh.
Thanks for all taggies and encouragements! =)=)Really appreciate! Don't worry i'm fine already! =)
Btw its only the prelims, and it won't be taken into account into the final exam as well. I'm just testing the water and i just got overwhelmed. I guess I'll just persevere for another month. Shall do my best for the finals.
Whatever will be, will be.
I often remind myself that there's no excuse even when i feel like giving up or when i was totally exhausted. Its the route that i choose to take. I can't head back, only can go forward.
Since the choice has been made, i shall make the best out of it. =)
To say i'm not disappointed, I'll be lying. At least for maths, I thought that I would have at least pass that paper as that was the only subject I revised before I went to sit for it. Although I only used 2 days, sat and sun for revision, that's the best I could do. That's the problem with working full-time.
I never set myself to compete against the full-time students. As much as I hope to obtain good grades, sometimes we just have to accept the reality.
I feel sad when my mum got so disappointed. I thought that initially I was able to accept it, but she got so serious that she urged me to quit my job and therefore we begin arguing. Everything to her is about paper chase, and to me its about doing what I enjoy. Nobody is wrong, just different in perspective.
The greatest hit is when she finally came in my room and asked me if i really find it too difficult to cope. She asked me to change course or school if i want. She's willing to lend me that sum of money for sch fees. Can't help feeling sad as i've not only disappoint myself, but also disappoint her.
Sigh, out of a scale of 1 to 10, i think the pain level is at 7. It has been dragging for almost a week already, and it usually acts up at night. I even put off my dieting plans at the moment to let it recover, but it doesn't seemed to work. Tonight is worse than the previous few nights. Haizz.. =(
Even though i'm tired after end of everyday, i don't want to give up. I often said that i'm being pressurised, yet sometimes i feel that they are just showing support in another form. Have u ever thought that if no one really care about it, you'll never find a meaning to achieve it? You may even give up on it halfway.
Count my blessings, i suppose.
Think on the bright side. =)
Despite being tired and in pain, i'm contented and happy. =) It's only a small gesture but I appreciate it so much. It has always been.
Not feeling too good today... but i shall make it better.
Quoted this from Ms. Zoe Christian on Saturday.going gently into the night:
"When we are healthy, many of us sleepwalk through life like the living dead. You can see us in the MRT, on the way to work. Unsmiling. With vacant stares. Just like zombies. From where I am now, that seems like such a waste."
I seldom had insomnia after i started work. I couldn't wait to hit the sack every night whenever i came home, and only to find another dreading morning ahead when i opened my eyes. I cursed every single alarm clocks that wake me up, even my handphone's vibration alarm. Yes, my alarm is set in my handphone, vibration mode. This shows how light a sleeper I am.
I had difficulty falling asleep last night despite being sleepy. My mind has endless thoughts and activities that refused to die down. I find it harder to shut my eyes than to keep it open. I turned on the fan, listen to music, off the music, switch off the fan, twist and turned for duno how many times, before I finally fall into a subconscious kind of sleep.
When I thought that i can finally rest and sleep in a little longer on my off day, my brother came into my room, banged the cupboards, drawers and door. I always wonder why must he use so much strength to close the compartments. Didn't he see that I am just sleeping beside that damned cupboard?! My mum as usual was shouting non-stop to wake my dad. My dad's voice is naturally loud even without raising his voice. This is how they behave every morning, whether or not they know I'm sleeping.
I always wonder whether they have ever spare a thought for me. Don't get me wrong, i'm not sulking just because my sleep is disturbed. Its just that, whenever my dad or my brother is sleeping, they will keep their voice down, to the minimum, to avoid waking them up. I have confronted and shouted at them a few times, yet today the same thing happened.
I think I've given up. Sigh, i'm feeling so damn restless. I wanted to sleep but I can't, and i'm not feeling less than a walking zombie right now.
Hmm, misunderstands have been cleared. I'm glad its just misunderstandings. =) Btw, i'm so thankful for the constant encouragement from different people!!! (",) Its good to spur each other on. It really feels good to have people fighting alongside with you. =) =)
Btw, the drilling's getting worse. Or should i say it reached the maximum threshold that I can withstand. I can feel my whole floor vibrating. I couldn't stand it!! Why must it fall during my exam period. I really don't know what to say. It WORSE than my alarm clock every morning. I don't blame the workers, I don't blame the government for upgrading my lift although I dun need it, I just blame it on my luck.
Its okay if we are trying hard to squeeze in everything within these 2 weeks. Our block leave haben even started! So, just have to make the best out of it. Liping just mentioned that an econs lecturer ever said that it will be a waste to obtain just a pass or 3rd class honours degree, having wasted so much money for it. Kind of struck me quite badly and this really urge me to get rid of that idea!
Jia you liping, dear, gladys, shee wee, jian mei, felicia and ruobin.
Hehes, looking forward to our mahjong, nintendo wii and red wine party on 16th!! Til then, stay focus!
I broke my personal best today, i took 3 naps in the whole aftnoon! Sigh, have never been so sleepy! I guess its partly due to my right eye infection. The irritation has been ongoing for a few days, and i guess last night it just came all out. My eyes are so dry today, and they made me so sleepy.
Had a few sips of Choya ydae at my grandma's place, and it was enough to knock me out. I kinda like the aftermath effect, where you can feel your heart pumping and it makes you a little "high". However, the side effect of a throbbing headache is of course unwelcoming, and it follows me til the next morning. I guess I have to drink more often, my threshold for alcohol is too low!
Hehes, had fun at my grandma's place ydae. I love gatherings but often couldn't make time for it. I hope the mothers' day dim sum can be pushed forward after my exams, if not i'm going to give it a miss. Sigh.
Thanks for all taggies and encouragements! =)=)Really appreciate! Don't worry i'm fine already! =)
Btw its only the prelims, and it won't be taken into account into the final exam as well. I'm just testing the water and i just got overwhelmed. I guess I'll just persevere for another month. Shall do my best for the finals.
Whatever will be, will be.
I often remind myself that there's no excuse even when i feel like giving up or when i was totally exhausted. Its the route that i choose to take. I can't head back, only can go forward.
Since the choice has been made, i shall make the best out of it. =)
To say i'm not disappointed, I'll be lying. At least for maths, I thought that I would have at least pass that paper as that was the only subject I revised before I went to sit for it. Although I only used 2 days, sat and sun for revision, that's the best I could do. That's the problem with working full-time.
I never set myself to compete against the full-time students. As much as I hope to obtain good grades, sometimes we just have to accept the reality.
I feel sad when my mum got so disappointed. I thought that initially I was able to accept it, but she got so serious that she urged me to quit my job and therefore we begin arguing. Everything to her is about paper chase, and to me its about doing what I enjoy. Nobody is wrong, just different in perspective.
The greatest hit is when she finally came in my room and asked me if i really find it too difficult to cope. She asked me to change course or school if i want. She's willing to lend me that sum of money for sch fees. Can't help feeling sad as i've not only disappoint myself, but also disappoint her.
Sigh, out of a scale of 1 to 10, i think the pain level is at 7. It has been dragging for almost a week already, and it usually acts up at night. I even put off my dieting plans at the moment to let it recover, but it doesn't seemed to work. Tonight is worse than the previous few nights. Haizz.. =(
Even though i'm tired after end of everyday, i don't want to give up. I often said that i'm being pressurised, yet sometimes i feel that they are just showing support in another form. Have u ever thought that if no one really care about it, you'll never find a meaning to achieve it? You may even give up on it halfway.
Count my blessings, i suppose.
Think on the bright side. =)
Despite being tired and in pain, i'm contented and happy. =) It's only a small gesture but I appreciate it so much. It has always been.
Not feeling too good today... but i shall make it better.
Quoted this from Ms. Zoe Christian on Saturday.going gently into the night:
"When we are healthy, many of us sleepwalk through life like the living dead. You can see us in the MRT, on the way to work. Unsmiling. With vacant stares. Just like zombies. From where I am now, that seems like such a waste."
I seldom had insomnia after i started work. I couldn't wait to hit the sack every night whenever i came home, and only to find another dreading morning ahead when i opened my eyes. I cursed every single alarm clocks that wake me up, even my handphone's vibration alarm. Yes, my alarm is set in my handphone, vibration mode. This shows how light a sleeper I am.
I had difficulty falling asleep last night despite being sleepy. My mind has endless thoughts and activities that refused to die down. I find it harder to shut my eyes than to keep it open. I turned on the fan, listen to music, off the music, switch off the fan, twist and turned for duno how many times, before I finally fall into a subconscious kind of sleep.
When I thought that i can finally rest and sleep in a little longer on my off day, my brother came into my room, banged the cupboards, drawers and door. I always wonder why must he use so much strength to close the compartments. Didn't he see that I am just sleeping beside that damned cupboard?! My mum as usual was shouting non-stop to wake my dad. My dad's voice is naturally loud even without raising his voice. This is how they behave every morning, whether or not they know I'm sleeping.
I always wonder whether they have ever spare a thought for me. Don't get me wrong, i'm not sulking just because my sleep is disturbed. Its just that, whenever my dad or my brother is sleeping, they will keep their voice down, to the minimum, to avoid waking them up. I have confronted and shouted at them a few times, yet today the same thing happened.
I think I've given up. Sigh, i'm feeling so damn restless. I wanted to sleep but I can't, and i'm not feeling less than a walking zombie right now.
Breather
