Have you ever feel this way?? Longing for something, yet you don't know what you are waiting for? Have you ever felt so lonely and aimless that you start to doubt your existence in this world?
I had.
My headache is killing me. It has been bugging me straight for the past 3 days. Low intensity but constricting kind of pain. I didn't show doesn't mean I'm not in pain. I'm just trying to live with it. If you know if was your constant nagging problem, why complain so much to the world when none can help.
Today is saturday right? Yeah, its saturday and i'm not mistaken! Can someone pls tell me why on earth do i wake up at 6.30am and look into my phone to see if my alarm has rang?!!!!! I was so irritated with myself I wish i could kick myself in the face!!! Even after i was convinced that today is non-working saturday, i couldn't fall aslp anymore! I was wide awake, and energized! -_-! This doesn't happen on a weekday, beats me. Stupid body.
So, i went down to have my run today!! Just 3km and i'm satisfied. Good to sweat it out on a saturday morning! =D Came back feel more energized for the day.. Hehes. Did the hydrating mask on my face, and the cucumber mask on my eyes, its oh-so-refreshing!!! Hehes! =D Its only 9am now.. What am i suppose to do?? I'll only be meeting my jie meis at 1pm. (>.<)
Nvm, i'm feeling gd right now. Nobody's at home. I finally have time for myself. =D
I hear thunder, I hear thunder.. I supposed its gg to rain soon. Hehes. Hopefully another cooling night to sleep! If only the next day is a saturday, den i can slp in as long as i like, and need not be woken up by the sickening alarm. Haha..
I'm feeling damn guilty today. I had chicken rice for lunch, a slice of strawberry shortcake for dessert courtesy from stefanie, 2 slices of bread with butter + peanut butter, and a white choc orange flavoured donut. Omg! Its so.... SWEET and FATTENING. Sigh.. Further more, I got 1 more choc cake from my sup today, and I just went to collect 2 more free choc brownies from The Royals today. Goodness. My fridge is all full of choc cakes, cheese cakes, chocolates etc! I have yet to stick to my yogurt-only dinner plan. 3 yogurts still sitting in my fridge, rotting! To those who are unaware, i'm on a fish soup only diet right now. Yeah. No rice, no noodles. Just fish. =p Or i may indulge in yong tau foo soup (only). So, I've broken my own rules today. =( I shall make up for it at least for the next 3 days!!
Don't get me wrong, i'm not on diet! I'm just trying to cut down on carbo and fats. Better way to slim down rather than pure dieting I suppose. I'm also going on a regular swim right now. Will be joining my company's pilates/yoga/gym classes with limin next week too. =) Can't wait! I can't stand having the feeling of fat layers sticking to my body. Yucks. Sigh.
Anywae, i'm so utterly sick of hearing the same thing over and over EVERYDAY. Sigh.
Hmm, sometimes I just can't understand how come a fren can say things to put u down or to hurt you. I was wondering if that person just purely enjoy mocking at others, or want to make you feel little as compared to him/her. Sometimes i'm so tired of that those things he/she said.
Anywae, another sat is zooming pass me just like that! Soon it will be monday. Boo. Ydae had my amkss 4/2 class chalet. Haha. It was interesting to see the changes in many people. But some of them still didn't grow up after so many years. Hahazz.
Didn't know what to say now. Feeling rather drained becos of the consistent gastric since ydae. I wonder why it occur so frequently.. Even though I am cutting fat, but i'm not on diet! Hmm, went swimming again, and i increased the intensity! Feeling shiok but tired. Hehes. Alrite gtg have dinner with my family now.. =)
i guess the feeling has slowly subsided. i'm trying to convince myself to let it pass. there's still a long way ahead which i need to walk with. i guess i just have to tune my mentality a little. i have to, i got no choice. i just hope that whatever happen later can at least be kinder to me. how to teach a person to be more sensitive and less taking ppl for granted?
anywae, i'm drowning in my own thoughts these days that i kinda lost myself in reality. haha.
so what have i done in this "long" weekend? hmm.... watched the hangover with dear at bugis, ate mango pamelo ice, temple on sunday, shopping at tm with parents, dropped by my aunt's place, watched ndp at home, had 2 days of just boiled vegetables for dinner, nursing my abt-to-sore throat (you know what i mean).
ohh.. i haben mentioned that my dad's car met an accident ydae while we were trying to squeeze with the crowd for the 44cents less/litre petrol at Shell. -_-! it happened along yio chu kang rd and it was so damn crowded and jammed. so we decided not to squeeze with them anymore and my dad juz maintain in the 3rd lane and drove straight. just then, this car from the 2nd lane cut into our lane so abruptly tt my dad is not able to stop in time! it banged into our car and the whole car jerked. I was sitting behind at the passenger seat that time and i was flunked forward. luckily i managed to hold on to my mum's seat but i hit the left side of my head and shoulder. for a moment, there was pain and i keep touching my head to see if there were blood. haha.. luckily there's none. just pain if i try to massage it now. there's also a bruise on my left shin, i wonder if i hit my leg as well.
anywae, the person was very apologetic and willing to pay for the damage. so we shall also be kind and tell the person that we will not claim for any insurance. if not he'll be broke overnight!!! when he took out his ic, we saw he is born in 1982 (27 yrs old) de, so my mum actually say suan le lah. haha, cos he's just ard my bro's age. well, accidents do happen... and no one was injured. =) oh btw, the whole left door was badly dented and scatched.. aww.. it will take at least 2-3days in the workshop, but we will try to get the best price for that guy. haha!
so.. owning a car may not be that great either. you dun bang others, others also come and bang you. hehes.
alright. i'm going off le! tml morning will be gg swimming with dear. yippie! =)
At least there's something to perk me up. I can't wait for 29th Aug, where i'll be flying off to Bangkok! I'll be planning a short KL getaway trip with dear! I'm also planning a holiday to guangzhou with my family in Sept!
Although all 3 trips were planned for a purpose, i will still get to enjoy the holiday as much as i can!
I'm only left with 2 days of leaves after my bangkok trip, but i shall create miracles.
i've been feeling rather down recently. pls dun ask me why.. yeah, thanks boubou, i will jia you de! i know what is the problem, and i can't help feeling this way.. and for u guys who are reading this, do me a favour, pls dun ask me why.. just need a space to pour out my feelings. thanks..
just hated the growing up process. so many things change. and some people are just so... insensitive.
but come to think of it, i've been like this since sec sch. and i thought after i entered poly, i won't experience such feeling anymore. it was poly days that made me a much happier person. why did it come back...
yes, i'm feeling depressed. really.
btw, i must be determined to loose weight!! yeah, i MUST do it. i've been cutting down on calories and exercise more frequently le!! duno why results still doesn't really show. and i even felt meatier than before. sighh.. no choice, i'm someone who gains weight very easily (its true).
one of the bad nights again. don't really feel good. no, not at all. hated this feeling. but what can i do? stop it. i dun wan to know. i dun wan to hear. i'm feeling rather lousy now. i wish i can shout. i wish i can cry. what happened? i'm feeling dread all over. i hated the long weekends all of a sudden. bad. lonely. upset. sorry. just one of the bad nights. i'm off here.
I've got a new name, and its Bubbles! =) Haha. Shan't announce how i got this name, but its inspired by Janice who thought of the powerpuff girls theme. Everything fits in so nice, and i'm so glad that we finally settled on one theme. It represents a trio, and inspires us to come up with tagline!
Hehes.
I simply love the sugar, spice and everything nice! =D
I will pray hard that it will turn out well.. =)=)
First baby steps. Still learning to crawl. But there will come a time when we'll learn to stand, to walk, and eventually we are able to take off and run. =)
Have you ever feel this way?? Longing for something, yet you don't know what you are waiting for? Have you ever felt so lonely and aimless that you start to doubt your existence in this world?
I had.
My headache is killing me. It has been bugging me straight for the past 3 days. Low intensity but constricting kind of pain. I didn't show doesn't mean I'm not in pain. I'm just trying to live with it. If you know if was your constant nagging problem, why complain so much to the world when none can help.
Today is saturday right? Yeah, its saturday and i'm not mistaken! Can someone pls tell me why on earth do i wake up at 6.30am and look into my phone to see if my alarm has rang?!!!!! I was so irritated with myself I wish i could kick myself in the face!!! Even after i was convinced that today is non-working saturday, i couldn't fall aslp anymore! I was wide awake, and energized! -_-! This doesn't happen on a weekday, beats me. Stupid body.
So, i went down to have my run today!! Just 3km and i'm satisfied. Good to sweat it out on a saturday morning! =D Came back feel more energized for the day.. Hehes. Did the hydrating mask on my face, and the cucumber mask on my eyes, its oh-so-refreshing!!! Hehes! =D Its only 9am now.. What am i suppose to do?? I'll only be meeting my jie meis at 1pm. (>.<)
Nvm, i'm feeling gd right now. Nobody's at home. I finally have time for myself. =D
I hear thunder, I hear thunder.. I supposed its gg to rain soon. Hehes. Hopefully another cooling night to sleep! If only the next day is a saturday, den i can slp in as long as i like, and need not be woken up by the sickening alarm. Haha..
I'm feeling damn guilty today. I had chicken rice for lunch, a slice of strawberry shortcake for dessert courtesy from stefanie, 2 slices of bread with butter + peanut butter, and a white choc orange flavoured donut. Omg! Its so.... SWEET and FATTENING. Sigh.. Further more, I got 1 more choc cake from my sup today, and I just went to collect 2 more free choc brownies from The Royals today. Goodness. My fridge is all full of choc cakes, cheese cakes, chocolates etc! I have yet to stick to my yogurt-only dinner plan. 3 yogurts still sitting in my fridge, rotting! To those who are unaware, i'm on a fish soup only diet right now. Yeah. No rice, no noodles. Just fish. =p Or i may indulge in yong tau foo soup (only). So, I've broken my own rules today. =( I shall make up for it at least for the next 3 days!!
Don't get me wrong, i'm not on diet! I'm just trying to cut down on carbo and fats. Better way to slim down rather than pure dieting I suppose. I'm also going on a regular swim right now. Will be joining my company's pilates/yoga/gym classes with limin next week too. =) Can't wait! I can't stand having the feeling of fat layers sticking to my body. Yucks. Sigh.
Anywae, i'm so utterly sick of hearing the same thing over and over EVERYDAY. Sigh.
Hmm, sometimes I just can't understand how come a fren can say things to put u down or to hurt you. I was wondering if that person just purely enjoy mocking at others, or want to make you feel little as compared to him/her. Sometimes i'm so tired of that those things he/she said.
Anywae, another sat is zooming pass me just like that! Soon it will be monday. Boo. Ydae had my amkss 4/2 class chalet. Haha. It was interesting to see the changes in many people. But some of them still didn't grow up after so many years. Hahazz.
Didn't know what to say now. Feeling rather drained becos of the consistent gastric since ydae. I wonder why it occur so frequently.. Even though I am cutting fat, but i'm not on diet! Hmm, went swimming again, and i increased the intensity! Feeling shiok but tired. Hehes. Alrite gtg have dinner with my family now.. =)
i guess the feeling has slowly subsided. i'm trying to convince myself to let it pass. there's still a long way ahead which i need to walk with. i guess i just have to tune my mentality a little. i have to, i got no choice. i just hope that whatever happen later can at least be kinder to me. how to teach a person to be more sensitive and less taking ppl for granted?
anywae, i'm drowning in my own thoughts these days that i kinda lost myself in reality. haha.
so what have i done in this "long" weekend? hmm.... watched the hangover with dear at bugis, ate mango pamelo ice, temple on sunday, shopping at tm with parents, dropped by my aunt's place, watched ndp at home, had 2 days of just boiled vegetables for dinner, nursing my abt-to-sore throat (you know what i mean).
ohh.. i haben mentioned that my dad's car met an accident ydae while we were trying to squeeze with the crowd for the 44cents less/litre petrol at Shell. -_-! it happened along yio chu kang rd and it was so damn crowded and jammed. so we decided not to squeeze with them anymore and my dad juz maintain in the 3rd lane and drove straight. just then, this car from the 2nd lane cut into our lane so abruptly tt my dad is not able to stop in time! it banged into our car and the whole car jerked. I was sitting behind at the passenger seat that time and i was flunked forward. luckily i managed to hold on to my mum's seat but i hit the left side of my head and shoulder. for a moment, there was pain and i keep touching my head to see if there were blood. haha.. luckily there's none. just pain if i try to massage it now. there's also a bruise on my left shin, i wonder if i hit my leg as well.
anywae, the person was very apologetic and willing to pay for the damage. so we shall also be kind and tell the person that we will not claim for any insurance. if not he'll be broke overnight!!! when he took out his ic, we saw he is born in 1982 (27 yrs old) de, so my mum actually say suan le lah. haha, cos he's just ard my bro's age. well, accidents do happen... and no one was injured. =) oh btw, the whole left door was badly dented and scatched.. aww.. it will take at least 2-3days in the workshop, but we will try to get the best price for that guy. haha!
so.. owning a car may not be that great either. you dun bang others, others also come and bang you. hehes.
alright. i'm going off le! tml morning will be gg swimming with dear. yippie! =)
At least there's something to perk me up. I can't wait for 29th Aug, where i'll be flying off to Bangkok! I'll be planning a short KL getaway trip with dear! I'm also planning a holiday to guangzhou with my family in Sept!
Although all 3 trips were planned for a purpose, i will still get to enjoy the holiday as much as i can!
I'm only left with 2 days of leaves after my bangkok trip, but i shall create miracles.
i've been feeling rather down recently. pls dun ask me why.. yeah, thanks boubou, i will jia you de! i know what is the problem, and i can't help feeling this way.. and for u guys who are reading this, do me a favour, pls dun ask me why.. just need a space to pour out my feelings. thanks..
just hated the growing up process. so many things change. and some people are just so... insensitive.
but come to think of it, i've been like this since sec sch. and i thought after i entered poly, i won't experience such feeling anymore. it was poly days that made me a much happier person. why did it come back...
yes, i'm feeling depressed. really.
btw, i must be determined to loose weight!! yeah, i MUST do it. i've been cutting down on calories and exercise more frequently le!! duno why results still doesn't really show. and i even felt meatier than before. sighh.. no choice, i'm someone who gains weight very easily (its true).
one of the bad nights again. don't really feel good. no, not at all. hated this feeling. but what can i do? stop it. i dun wan to know. i dun wan to hear. i'm feeling rather lousy now. i wish i can shout. i wish i can cry. what happened? i'm feeling dread all over. i hated the long weekends all of a sudden. bad. lonely. upset. sorry. just one of the bad nights. i'm off here.
I've got a new name, and its Bubbles! =) Haha. Shan't announce how i got this name, but its inspired by Janice who thought of the powerpuff girls theme. Everything fits in so nice, and i'm so glad that we finally settled on one theme. It represents a trio, and inspires us to come up with tagline!
Hehes.
I simply love the sugar, spice and everything nice! =D
I will pray hard that it will turn out well.. =)=)
First baby steps. Still learning to crawl. But there will come a time when we'll learn to stand, to walk, and eventually we are able to take off and run. =)
when night falls..
Have you ever feel this way?? Longing for something, yet you don't know what you are waiting for? Have you ever felt so lonely and aimless that you start to doubt your existence in this world?
