Sigh, what a slow and sleepy day at work.. Its just 9.25am. How am i going to survive throughout the day. Haizz.... sian.... Mood is going downhill every single second at work. Sianzz.. Having class later as well, where can I find the energy?? God knows.
Can't stand waking up every morning knowing that I have to prepare for work. Why do I resent working so much?
Simply can't wait for Sat to arrive!! I dun mind waking up early to do the things I enjoy. I'm going Bodybalance with xp again! =) To fight off all the fats! Stupid stubborn fats that keep clinging on to me...! Aft which I'll doing some surveying with sisters. =)
Happy happy.. =) I'm so glad I have support from dd! Hehe.. okie baby steps at a time okay. My determination shall hold. No more finding excuses for myself. =)
Slowly, i'm going to get rid of the word "TIRED". It shall stay put in the archive of my dictionary. Getting sick and tired of "Tired",
Once in awhile, I will say "I need to unwind!" instead..!
I love today's tai chi cum pilates cum yoga. Hehe. I shall tag along with xp again! =p
I love my first baby steps with my sisters. =)
I love my deardear for fetching me all the way from amk despite being so tired after work. =D No taking for granted anymore. Imagine the journey home without him. =/
And, I will learn to embrace life as much as possible... =D=D
I'm on a 2-day course today and tml.. =) A good getaway from the mundane office. Haha. I'm glad the trainer is interesting and it was almost the first time I don't feel drowsy from attending courses..! The things he said at times also made us reflect on many things.. There's so many things going on that we are unaware of..
Of cos, there are many constraints that tied us down. Dang~ Reminds me of the Bounded Rationality Model. -_-! Anyway, I feel that I really need to find that answer in my life, soon. After I found the answer, I need to break free from the boundaries and get it done! Time, money and energy level are the 3 main obstacles.. How do I overcome them? Sigh..
I feel like I'm wasting my youth all these while. I'm lost in my direction. Too many uncertainties, too much procrastination, and most importantly, I doubt my own ability.
How do I get myself back on feet? Do I really want to lead a zombified life where I feel listless almost everyday? Does that even call a life?
I hate shit things! Well, who doesn't?! Just need to rant off all my anger if not it will be boiling inside me. Grrr!!!! Just my luck to be working with some irresponsible ppl!!! But, come to think, why must I be so bothered?!! Yah, the whole world can blame me, but my conscious is clear!! I'm no longer the little lamb like I used to be, I can bite too!
Well, dun let those not-so-impt ppl affect our mood. Really. Just some shitty stuff. Just go toilet and let it off and it will get rid of those junk in ur system! Yeah, and I think I found a jogging partner in office. Limin!! But she have to fit my slower pace la, haha. =)
And thanks gladys, KNNB her! lols! I'm lovin' it. =p
I think i'm so damn bored of my stagnant life til the point I feel like breaking out of this vicious cycle..! There are tonnes of things that I suddenly feel like doing, but either I do not have enough money, or not enough annual leaves.. Bah!
These are the things I want to do (I'm serious!!!): - 21-days overseas OBS to South Africa, (4.3k!! -_-) - Sign up facial package - Learn yoga - Leisure cycling trip at Pulau Ubin - Kite flying - Swimming on weekdays - Activities like Amazing Race??? can look out for CC-organised activities!
I'm so sick of living my days like a zombie, I NEED TO GO OUT TO PLAY!!!!!!
Let me know if any of you is interested on the above list. =p
My com is infected with the stupid virus again! I thought I've already installed anti-virus, what is it still happening?? There are many sites I can't go to now, and that includes Facebook!! The moment I try to open the brower, my IE will close down. WTF. I dun wish to reformat my com, it means having all my pics, songs, files DELETED. Sianz.... really WTF.
Life's pretty stagnant with work and school. I'm kinda exhausted this semester. There's no single lesson so far where I can concentrate 100% percent. I used to be able to concentrate.. What happened?? I think i'm losing hope, I dun wan to see my results in Sept, yet I can't help worrying abt it.
One major lesson I learnt: Leave aside enough finances for your children's education in the future. Part-time study is a no-no. Not only you have to incur your own huge sch expenses, you practically have no energy for class every night, you will have no life at all, PLUS your parents complain that you give them too little allowance every mth. WTF. I wish I earn a 5-figure salary too.
Sometimes I also need some understanding from the people around me. Nvm, forget it. And, its so difficult to find people with the same interest as you, to do the things we like together. Sigh, forget it.
Just came back from Amazing Race at Sentosa organised by my company!! All I could say it is totally physically and mentally testing~~!! However, everything to me is always still 30% physical, 70% endurance.. Yeah, it really test our patience and endurance. Haha!! Its been so long since I really sweat it how like that, it reminds me of Adventure Camp during our NPCC days!! Running upslope, downslope, upslope, downslope.... Of cos teamwork is the key to making all possible! One guy even commented that this was worse than their army training. lolz! I'm so glad we made it all the way =)=)
Having full blast lactic acidosis on both legs!!!! Yeah, no doubt I love the feeling, but this time it was so much worse! lolzz.. Went swimming with dear yesterday, already left me with slightly aching body, and today it just adds on to it..! My legs are on the verge of cramping! Alrite, i'm no marathon runner, so pls understand my physical limits. =p
However, I failed my mission badly! I didn't get dark at all despite staying out the whole day. It rained only in the morning, and there was sun all aftnoon!!! Sighh.. I think its getting harder to get the tan! Hmm... Well well, it was still a good workout after all..=)
Thanks deardear who picked me up at Vivocity. Hehes.. =)=) Yeah, still love you deep deep after all too. =D
Been thinking of some things these couple of days, or rather i'm just thinking about that thing. Kind of bothered, yet i dun want to know the truth.
Have you ever thought that life will be much better without constraints? Without having to spare a thought for other ppl's feelings, without having to do things that you dislike? Certainly it will be much better. I usually chose to do things which my parents or friends wanted me to do since young.. Be it academics, CCAs, disciplines, etc etc. I put down my own interest if I know the ppl around me gets irritated with the things I do. Sigh, how tiring.
Therefore, just like how a person would grow up rebellious due to constant beatings from parents, I've grown rebellious to my own personality. Now, I hate to follow rules, I'll find troubles with protocols, and the more someone force me to do certain things, the more I'll ignore. What leads to the change then? Probably I find it too tiring trying to appease ppl, and I got nothing in the end. Thanks.. to my wonderful teenage life.
Besides, I'm very bothered by the fact that if someone is trying to give in to my feelings, to do things for my sake, but end up complaining regretfully. Even though I'm aware that I'll feel upset if that someone didn't do what I wished he would do, the feeling of guilt is harder to bear. Unless you are sincere in what you are giving. If not, please don't.
Sigh, what a slow and sleepy day at work.. Its just 9.25am. How am i going to survive throughout the day. Haizz.... sian.... Mood is going downhill every single second at work. Sianzz.. Having class later as well, where can I find the energy?? God knows.
Can't stand waking up every morning knowing that I have to prepare for work. Why do I resent working so much?
Simply can't wait for Sat to arrive!! I dun mind waking up early to do the things I enjoy. I'm going Bodybalance with xp again! =) To fight off all the fats! Stupid stubborn fats that keep clinging on to me...! Aft which I'll doing some surveying with sisters. =)
Happy happy.. =) I'm so glad I have support from dd! Hehe.. okie baby steps at a time okay. My determination shall hold. No more finding excuses for myself. =)
Slowly, i'm going to get rid of the word "TIRED". It shall stay put in the archive of my dictionary. Getting sick and tired of "Tired",
Once in awhile, I will say "I need to unwind!" instead..!
I love today's tai chi cum pilates cum yoga. Hehe. I shall tag along with xp again! =p
I love my first baby steps with my sisters. =)
I love my deardear for fetching me all the way from amk despite being so tired after work. =D No taking for granted anymore. Imagine the journey home without him. =/
And, I will learn to embrace life as much as possible... =D=D
I'm on a 2-day course today and tml.. =) A good getaway from the mundane office. Haha. I'm glad the trainer is interesting and it was almost the first time I don't feel drowsy from attending courses..! The things he said at times also made us reflect on many things.. There's so many things going on that we are unaware of..
Of cos, there are many constraints that tied us down. Dang~ Reminds me of the Bounded Rationality Model. -_-! Anyway, I feel that I really need to find that answer in my life, soon. After I found the answer, I need to break free from the boundaries and get it done! Time, money and energy level are the 3 main obstacles.. How do I overcome them? Sigh..
I feel like I'm wasting my youth all these while. I'm lost in my direction. Too many uncertainties, too much procrastination, and most importantly, I doubt my own ability.
How do I get myself back on feet? Do I really want to lead a zombified life where I feel listless almost everyday? Does that even call a life?
I hate shit things! Well, who doesn't?! Just need to rant off all my anger if not it will be boiling inside me. Grrr!!!! Just my luck to be working with some irresponsible ppl!!! But, come to think, why must I be so bothered?!! Yah, the whole world can blame me, but my conscious is clear!! I'm no longer the little lamb like I used to be, I can bite too!
Well, dun let those not-so-impt ppl affect our mood. Really. Just some shitty stuff. Just go toilet and let it off and it will get rid of those junk in ur system! Yeah, and I think I found a jogging partner in office. Limin!! But she have to fit my slower pace la, haha. =)
And thanks gladys, KNNB her! lols! I'm lovin' it. =p
I think i'm so damn bored of my stagnant life til the point I feel like breaking out of this vicious cycle..! There are tonnes of things that I suddenly feel like doing, but either I do not have enough money, or not enough annual leaves.. Bah!
These are the things I want to do (I'm serious!!!): - 21-days overseas OBS to South Africa, (4.3k!! -_-) - Sign up facial package - Learn yoga - Leisure cycling trip at Pulau Ubin - Kite flying - Swimming on weekdays - Activities like Amazing Race??? can look out for CC-organised activities!
I'm so sick of living my days like a zombie, I NEED TO GO OUT TO PLAY!!!!!!
Let me know if any of you is interested on the above list. =p
My com is infected with the stupid virus again! I thought I've already installed anti-virus, what is it still happening?? There are many sites I can't go to now, and that includes Facebook!! The moment I try to open the brower, my IE will close down. WTF. I dun wish to reformat my com, it means having all my pics, songs, files DELETED. Sianz.... really WTF.
Life's pretty stagnant with work and school. I'm kinda exhausted this semester. There's no single lesson so far where I can concentrate 100% percent. I used to be able to concentrate.. What happened?? I think i'm losing hope, I dun wan to see my results in Sept, yet I can't help worrying abt it.
One major lesson I learnt: Leave aside enough finances for your children's education in the future. Part-time study is a no-no. Not only you have to incur your own huge sch expenses, you practically have no energy for class every night, you will have no life at all, PLUS your parents complain that you give them too little allowance every mth. WTF. I wish I earn a 5-figure salary too.
Sometimes I also need some understanding from the people around me. Nvm, forget it. And, its so difficult to find people with the same interest as you, to do the things we like together. Sigh, forget it.
Just came back from Amazing Race at Sentosa organised by my company!! All I could say it is totally physically and mentally testing~~!! However, everything to me is always still 30% physical, 70% endurance.. Yeah, it really test our patience and endurance. Haha!! Its been so long since I really sweat it how like that, it reminds me of Adventure Camp during our NPCC days!! Running upslope, downslope, upslope, downslope.... Of cos teamwork is the key to making all possible! One guy even commented that this was worse than their army training. lolz! I'm so glad we made it all the way =)=)
Having full blast lactic acidosis on both legs!!!! Yeah, no doubt I love the feeling, but this time it was so much worse! lolzz.. Went swimming with dear yesterday, already left me with slightly aching body, and today it just adds on to it..! My legs are on the verge of cramping! Alrite, i'm no marathon runner, so pls understand my physical limits. =p
However, I failed my mission badly! I didn't get dark at all despite staying out the whole day. It rained only in the morning, and there was sun all aftnoon!!! Sighh.. I think its getting harder to get the tan! Hmm... Well well, it was still a good workout after all..=)
Thanks deardear who picked me up at Vivocity. Hehes.. =)=) Yeah, still love you deep deep after all too. =D
Been thinking of some things these couple of days, or rather i'm just thinking about that thing. Kind of bothered, yet i dun want to know the truth.
Have you ever thought that life will be much better without constraints? Without having to spare a thought for other ppl's feelings, without having to do things that you dislike? Certainly it will be much better. I usually chose to do things which my parents or friends wanted me to do since young.. Be it academics, CCAs, disciplines, etc etc. I put down my own interest if I know the ppl around me gets irritated with the things I do. Sigh, how tiring.
Therefore, just like how a person would grow up rebellious due to constant beatings from parents, I've grown rebellious to my own personality. Now, I hate to follow rules, I'll find troubles with protocols, and the more someone force me to do certain things, the more I'll ignore. What leads to the change then? Probably I find it too tiring trying to appease ppl, and I got nothing in the end. Thanks.. to my wonderful teenage life.
Besides, I'm very bothered by the fact that if someone is trying to give in to my feelings, to do things for my sake, but end up complaining regretfully. Even though I'm aware that I'll feel upset if that someone didn't do what I wished he would do, the feeling of guilt is harder to bear. Unless you are sincere in what you are giving. If not, please don't.
Sleepyhead*
