Its been quite some time since i last updated my blog~ too tired to update everytime when i come home.. And also i would log in to maplestory almost every night. =p
Work has been improving! Hopefully there will no more whining in the future posts. hehes~ I've been confirmed and my salary will go up a little, better than none. =) I've been feeling so lethargic at work because this week has been a breeze~ However, the real war is starting next week! We had so many cases next week.. ahhh..
Despite being tired, i have been meeting ber and my aunt for k-ing on Saturday night, and also meeting my frens for dinner and birthday parties! School is starting in 2 weeks time, i have to enjoy as much as i can now~
Hmm, nth much to update becos life's been the same for me so far, but i'm thankful for that~ Soon i have to channel my focus on my studies! We have to jia you!!!!!!
I'm starting work at 12pm today. Saturday will never seem to feel like a half day work anymore.. Had long meetings on thursday & friday, and realized that certain things juz couldn't be sorted out. It seemed that i'm too naive to sign on the paper that says 9am-6pm, and now that they twist their words and putting it as "no choice, think abt it, let me know, or i can have another girl whom is willing to take up shift work.."
I'm so tired talking abt this already.. So tired of playing mind games with them. Yet.... why am i hesitating? i got no answer. Yesterday, one girl were asked to "Please Leave" in the morning when her last day is today. Sighh... Why can't she let her fulfil her 1 week notice?? Another girl will be leaving today. And they are the ones who bring joy to the place, and they are the ones who set up this place even before she came in. Life's so unfair.....
Yet, when people started to ask me why i do not like it here, i couldn't say much except for the management. Its been great working around with nice people, perhaps i'm waiting for a permanent manager to take over this place.
Anywae, i've been mapling with Ber and her friends through the night even though i'm tired. hehes~~ It really helps me to destress. I've never come across work that makes me heart pumps so fast even before work has started. Haha, life's never been so messy..
Its okay, i believe this is the work of nature. Everything is predestinied...
I always treated everyone equally... Because I constantly reminded myself that everyone is the same, there's no great difference between seniors and juniors. I also treated my juniors with respect, because as long as you and i are humans, we are all the same. You may be lower in rank than me now, but one day you might be my superior, and vice versa.
I treasured all living things on earth. I dun have the heart to even squash an ant with my bare hands. However, that excludes mosquitos.
But today, the cruelty of this world starts to sink in. No matter how much you tried to appease people, how much u tried to respect everyone and hope that they will treat you the same, it does not seemed to work anymore. I am disappointed in how others whom think that they possess such authority and put themselves so high up above others. Respect is to be earned, and not demanded.
Just simply repeating that you are the director doesn't earn my respect at all. Just simply repeating that you own 12.5% of this company doesn't make me feel your significance. Just simply repeating that you play a part in contributing my salary doesn't makes me feel grateful, because honestly, my salary wasn't fantastic in the first place, not to mention underpaid + no pay OT + shift work instead of regular office hours. Just simply repeating your flowery words towards girls' beautiful legs totally tarnishes my image of how a director should behave.
I admitted that i broke down today. I broke down 3 times in just a month. I worked overtime for 11.5hrs just working in here for 1 month.
But i'm enduring, and i'm enjoying my work despite all these shit that happens. Because of my partner, because of everyone working together at the surgical site, because i can feel that everyone cares for one another in this place.
But the management alone drains all my energy and my meaning for working hard for this company. If it weren't for the wonderful colleagues around me, i would have no hesitation to leave this messy place. Anyway, i may loose my stand soon even if i tried to stay, because there's a time bomb which may just dropped on you anytime. So many people were asked to leave, and those are the people whom set up this place before the management and directors kicked in.
So this is how they repay their workers.
I am totally exhausted. As far as I am concern, i am laying back for now. No point trying to improve things when people doesn't appreciate or understand. No point working extra for them without getting paid and applauded. Yes, i will start working as much as they are paying me.
Its been quite some time since i last updated my blog~ too tired to update everytime when i come home.. And also i would log in to maplestory almost every night. =p
Work has been improving! Hopefully there will no more whining in the future posts. hehes~ I've been confirmed and my salary will go up a little, better than none. =) I've been feeling so lethargic at work because this week has been a breeze~ However, the real war is starting next week! We had so many cases next week.. ahhh..
Despite being tired, i have been meeting ber and my aunt for k-ing on Saturday night, and also meeting my frens for dinner and birthday parties! School is starting in 2 weeks time, i have to enjoy as much as i can now~
Hmm, nth much to update becos life's been the same for me so far, but i'm thankful for that~ Soon i have to channel my focus on my studies! We have to jia you!!!!!!
I'm starting work at 12pm today. Saturday will never seem to feel like a half day work anymore.. Had long meetings on thursday & friday, and realized that certain things juz couldn't be sorted out. It seemed that i'm too naive to sign on the paper that says 9am-6pm, and now that they twist their words and putting it as "no choice, think abt it, let me know, or i can have another girl whom is willing to take up shift work.."
I'm so tired talking abt this already.. So tired of playing mind games with them. Yet.... why am i hesitating? i got no answer. Yesterday, one girl were asked to "Please Leave" in the morning when her last day is today. Sighh... Why can't she let her fulfil her 1 week notice?? Another girl will be leaving today. And they are the ones who bring joy to the place, and they are the ones who set up this place even before she came in. Life's so unfair.....
Yet, when people started to ask me why i do not like it here, i couldn't say much except for the management. Its been great working around with nice people, perhaps i'm waiting for a permanent manager to take over this place.
Anywae, i've been mapling with Ber and her friends through the night even though i'm tired. hehes~~ It really helps me to destress. I've never come across work that makes me heart pumps so fast even before work has started. Haha, life's never been so messy..
Its okay, i believe this is the work of nature. Everything is predestinied...
I always treated everyone equally... Because I constantly reminded myself that everyone is the same, there's no great difference between seniors and juniors. I also treated my juniors with respect, because as long as you and i are humans, we are all the same. You may be lower in rank than me now, but one day you might be my superior, and vice versa.
I treasured all living things on earth. I dun have the heart to even squash an ant with my bare hands. However, that excludes mosquitos.
But today, the cruelty of this world starts to sink in. No matter how much you tried to appease people, how much u tried to respect everyone and hope that they will treat you the same, it does not seemed to work anymore. I am disappointed in how others whom think that they possess such authority and put themselves so high up above others. Respect is to be earned, and not demanded.
Just simply repeating that you are the director doesn't earn my respect at all. Just simply repeating that you own 12.5% of this company doesn't make me feel your significance. Just simply repeating that you play a part in contributing my salary doesn't makes me feel grateful, because honestly, my salary wasn't fantastic in the first place, not to mention underpaid + no pay OT + shift work instead of regular office hours. Just simply repeating your flowery words towards girls' beautiful legs totally tarnishes my image of how a director should behave.
I admitted that i broke down today. I broke down 3 times in just a month. I worked overtime for 11.5hrs just working in here for 1 month.
But i'm enduring, and i'm enjoying my work despite all these shit that happens. Because of my partner, because of everyone working together at the surgical site, because i can feel that everyone cares for one another in this place.
But the management alone drains all my energy and my meaning for working hard for this company. If it weren't for the wonderful colleagues around me, i would have no hesitation to leave this messy place. Anyway, i may loose my stand soon even if i tried to stay, because there's a time bomb which may just dropped on you anytime. So many people were asked to leave, and those are the people whom set up this place before the management and directors kicked in.
So this is how they repay their workers.
I am totally exhausted. As far as I am concern, i am laying back for now. No point trying to improve things when people doesn't appreciate or understand. No point working extra for them without getting paid and applauded. Yes, i will start working as much as they are paying me.
At work!
